Maybe sleep is needed as we get up too early or maybe because the diet is not as nutritious as it could be or maybe it is the climate or maybe it is a docile approach to life or maybe it is just a good escape from a harsh reality. Like everything here, I just don't know. I will just speak for myself.
Living here, every day I face the same dilemma encapsulated by the same basic question - what is happening here? I receive a work communication and as I try to deal with the difficulty presented, I ask myself what is really happening here. We are given a notice at work and what is it that is really being said. I go out with Om last week to a grand community celebration and when it comes to going home, it is why are we still here?
I am eventually told that, as a member of staff, he needed to stay back late and help clean up. He never told me that. Truth is that if I am told the score, I can deal with what is given. However, time and again I am not told the score. So what am I to do?There is nothing personal in this as it is just part of being here for all of us from outside. We never seem to be told the score.
It makes me ask why aren't we told what is really going on around us. Is it lack of trust, is it the way communication happens or fails to happen, is it lack of thought or is it the way it is planned? I just don't know what it is. All I can say is that it is part of being in Thailand. So maybe sleep is the answer to what you can't control. It is better than getting upset as that serves no purpose, getting you nowhere other than to destroy your day. When times get tough, go and take a nap.
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